THIS PAST WEEK
HAS BEEN AMAZING
so to start off, i have traveled to jamaica for my Grandpa, tapas 85th birthday which is in february, but we are celebrating it now, due to the holiday season.
First few days i didnt really do anything. Went down to the beach, came up for lunch, hung out with the family.
My family that is here are everyone on my dads side. Including YOYO & TAPA, Ken and Lois, Nate and Chris, Sarah and Josh, Linda and Mike, Blair and her friend Jessie, Dylan and dad, and of course Fiona.
My family isn’t extremely close. Infact most of the family limits themselve to interacting within their smaller families.Because it is just DAD DYLAN AND ME, i dont like to limit myself.
But this year, i felt more akward than ever. This was the year of college applications, daunting me. scary as hell. so the common conversation was about colleges and where i want to go. But most, if not all, of my cousins made me feel very very very very comfortable talking about it.
They were different than how i had judged them in the past, which i felt bad about. All of them
Blair was so much funnier than i though she was, and Sarah was so much stronger and such a good mom.Josh has always been a great guys to be around. Chris and i jst get along so well, and Nate, ugh well hes the best.
Nate is so awesome. He is so kind, and sweet and still knows how to have fun. He is in the military. He does human resources in some place in Texas, but he use to be in the navy. he is hoping to go live somewhere like england or germany. But when he was young he had dad problems. Least to say his biological dad was very similar to my mom. Selfish is a key word. But he told me i can talk to him anytime, out of everyone he is the one i am goign to miss seing the most. I only get to see him eveyr couple years.
Last night a bunch of my family went to a neghboring resort and say ewan mcgreggor. While that was pretty cool, Nate and i basically had bonding time. We talked abotu so much, while we played cards. He told me thigns abotu his life, and i told him things abotu mine. But the best part is that he is having a baby!!!!!!!!! they found out on chistmas and i am one of 5 peoople who know in my family, i am really honored that they told me, and i am so excited for them. he is going to be a great father. Really.
Tonight was new years, obviously. We went down to the beach. there was this big party, like every year, with a band/ dj, a bunch of food, and lots of nice times. I had such a fun time, dancing and eating. but especially with my family. It was so nice just being with them, dancing, nnot a care in the world. twas lovely.
when midnight struck, some of us were standing on the beach. I ran out calf deep into the water and just watched and sang auld langs sign to myself. I sounded great if i do say so myself. Then i just started writing in the sand. I saw people had written cute things liek i love so and so. but i wrote down things that i wanted wither to go away or wishes to come true, or dreams. Regrets i wanted to forget and people i missed.
My night was great. Happy New year.
also, nbd, but i found out my family is form scotland. FUCK YEAH
